I’ve been blogging here for over five years, and now I find myself somewhat tired of it. It used to be fun and helped me take my mind off things, but now I feel like it’s becoming a burden.

It’s the last place I’m online, the last place I regularly update, and the only place I share my ideas. However, I have a strange feeling about it—a sense of disappointment and discouragement.

I feel like I have nothing valuable to share with others anymore. It seems pointless to share my political views, ideological beliefs, and understanding of the world. Apart from free software, I don’t think there’s anything anyone would find useful to read here. I’m empty of new ideas, tired of sharing them, and too busy to curate any meaningful writing.

I’ve thought hard about deleting this blog. I did it some time ago, but I later regretted my decision and brought it back. Now, I’m considering purging everything again. I’m even thinking about removing the DNS records so that there would be no web page, not even an error page. However, I know I’ll miss it. I find something interesting to share, and I regret that I don’t have a place to put it. I’ll have something to say, and I’ll feel sorry that I purged the only place I could say it freely.

I know it’s my safe haven, and I mostly write for myself rather than for readers. I don’t try to attract people; my goal is to express my thoughts and feelings freely. I’ve thought about deleting this blog, it’s been on my mind for a long time, and I find it too difficult. Mostly because I feel a sense of security and belonging here. I feel there’s somewhere I can talk when there’s nowhere else. I think I can be useful, I can teach something and learn more from others.

I’ve found friends through this blog and I intend to find more. I’ve learned a lot from them and I enjoy their messages now and then. So I’ll keep it alive for another day. Tomorrow, I hope to decide to keep it for one more.