It’s been months since I’ve started working my new job and part of it is to check and report from the construction site and I regularly take pictures.

You gotta sacrifice something to get something in return. My boss taught me a life lesson today. We were talking about the wrestling match between Rahman Amouzad and Kiyoota Kotaro in Paris Olympics and how Rahman unbelievably lost the match after dominating all of his previous opponents without losing even one point and he told me something erudite.

He said sometimes you want to prevent losing 2 points and end up losing ten for that. You gotta give the two points and fight for a better position to win.

It’s exactly like that in life. You gotta sacrifice something to get something. It’s just how life works. You gotta give the two points in life so you can continue fighting and getting more. If you stick to the two points, you end up losing everything else.

I love blogging. If you know a little about me or follow this blog, you surely know I don’t use social networks, they’re not built for me, but I love blogging and writing about what matters to me on my blog.

I try my best to keep my blog updated but sometimes it gets hard. It’s not only publishing, the server, the program behind the blog (WordPress), plugins installed on it, and some other stuff, such as the domain, needs to be update and taken care of.

Keeping stuff running may not be hard but publishing and being updated is. It’s not that I write and publish because I have to, but sometimes expressing yourself and finding the right way to publish something on your mind is hard.

I have a lot of stuff on my mind that I want to share with people but most of the times it just won’t make it to the blog. I just don’t find a way to put it here. I can’t find the correct words, the correct format, sometimes the correct source, and sometimes the correct category for what I want to share so time passes and I just let it go.

I’m sometimes tempted to create a social network account and write small posts there. Sometimes I think about creating a small micro-blogging platform on this blog and use that but I know it’ll be temporary and a waste of time and energy.

Sometimes I think about closing this blog. Just delete everything and shut it down. No online presence whatsoever. Last time I did I got a bunch of emails from friends and readers telling me they miss the blog. It was a joyful feeling knowing someone cares about what you publish online and actually reads them.

I don’t use any tracking or analytic program on this blog so I have no idea how many people read my posts. The blog is not commercial and it’s not even reader-based, its sole purpose is to give me a safe space to publish what I want.

Blogging is hard. Writing and publishing while you preserve your own standards is hard. Keeping it updated is hard. But even with all that, blogging, writing, and being a part of this great community of indieweb bloggers is so awesome that it’s absolutely worth it.

This morning I woke up thinking about deleting this blog and letting it go. I thought real hard about destroying my last home online but I needed only one click to open up my blog and take a look at it to stop.

This post supposed to be a goodbye post but it’s not. I only need to start writing again to feel good about what I have here. I’m planning to keep it alive for a long time and I hope I can succeed doing so.